She's always used sex as a way to express things she otherwise can't, but it's also often been used in her cons. A way to make men and women feel a certain way, a way to make them hers and even though she's not doing any of that here, she isn't trying to manipulate, she isn't putting any of her siren powers into what they're doing, she knows the same thing is happening. In a way, she's making Caden hers and she wonders if maybe he's making her his as well. It's a scary sort of thought, one that's a little too serious and April's hands slide up his back, pulling him close when he wraps his arms around her.

It's easier than looking at him and trying to figure out what she's feeling.

She lifts her hips for him, riding his rhythm with ease, her head tipped back against his bed. Her breath is coming out in short gasps, little moans chasing the end and it feels good. This is what she wanted. To escape into something that's just for her, something that feels amazing, something that helps her forget everything else that's going on and she wonders a little if she's using Caden for that, then dismisses it. If she just wanted to use someone, there are plenty of options in town. She could have gone almost anywhere and she came here. It's about more than just having someone fuck her.

And that's scary, too.